one villain, two violent

i brought out the darkness in you both

violence, that i'm not familiar with

souls that don't blink with taste of death

hearts that know no fear, just wrath

i read and heard two sides

two powers that are capable to destroy

two plots of chaining and draining

two brains that scare me to creep

two, that make me sleep with one eye open

but you both brought out my darkness

by abandonment and by temptation

adrenaline that i had forgot

guilt that i want to forget

an addiction that had been asleep

a pattern that i inherit

records that i'm not proud of

guilt fills me left and right, dry and sappy

wondering if repair is still achievable

even if i couldn't make everyone happy

at least i shouldn't make everyone miserable

i saw his bruised and scraped knuckles 

left me wondered what stamps are on you

now us three are left with struggles

to forget, to forgive, and to heal through

my words are swallowed, by the tip of my throat

"are you okay?" i couldn't say

my confusions silenced, i wouldn't take the shot

you're better off, unhurt by love

he's left with disbelief

you're left with wounds 

i'm left, alone with guilt

i am the villain

with no place to shield

falling with no safety net

chugging anxiety cocktails

of worry, disappointment, fear, and regret

you both talked about cages and chains

but i'm the one chained in this cage

i should've stepped in in between

an attempt to stop the fight

i wish i had, might i had a chance

to accidentally be physically hurt

so i would've felt mentally better

and maybe realize that you both are villains too